This is a letter to myself from when I was in high school. It’s been 4 years since I’ve graduated from high school. I was 13 when I started high school and I was 17 when I graduated from high school. I began to think of what I’ve done and went through between then and now. With all of that, I thought why not do a letter to myself from high school and share with her my advice of what I know now.
Dear past me,
This is yourself in the future. I’m writing this letter to you because I want to say I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for putting a lot of stress and worry on you. I’m so aimed to please people so much to get them to either respect me or to satisfy their needs. Whenever it would come to what I want to do, people would make an unreasonable excuse about it making me not wanting to do it. Certain things in life we won’t ever understand because no one will talk to us in a way we would understand. Even if they did, we would get told just the negative side of it and never told the positive. It’s hard when you have to learn on your own because it leaves you unsure if it’s right or not. I hope we learn to not be afraid to take chances or risks that we feel is the right to do.
I’m sorry for putting your heart and feelings in a tough place when it came to guys. I should’ve known better, but again no one would really explain to me. Having a crush in high school was just the first stepping stone of it. In college, it gets worse. You can’t control it because every single day you will always meet someone new. We both tend to get into our feelings to fast. Falling for looks is a trap. Don’t ever fall for it. I know what I want in a guy, but sometimes I question whether I’m asking for too much or not. Sometimes I don’t ever believe that he exists. After some realization, I’ve came to a conclusion that there is no one for me. I put in my head that we are too young, we don’t have the body, we don’t have the looks, and that we aren’t good enough. I know that it’s all negative, but that’s what I feel. Don’t waste time, thought, or energy over a guy. It’s not worth it. Just stay focused on school and your future. That’s more important.
I’m sorry for everything. Sometimes we have days that aren’t our best. I just want to tell you that down the road we don’t have days that are perfect. If there was one thing that I could change from both of us in high school it would be because of having a crush on a guy. That’s me being real and honest. It messes both of us up. My advice for you is to not waste anything over a guy, don’t try to please everyone, don’t over work yourself to get respect from people who don't care, live your life, and go with your gut and heart. I want you to know there are going to be some positive things and happy days that happen. Just know that life isn't easy and it won't be. We will have our days. Your friends are a big blessing and benefit. They will be there to make you laugh, forget your problems and worries, and will be there for you. I hope this letter can benefit both of us one day. Take care and have fun.
All the best,
Future me
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